august 1998

Session Start: Sat Aug 08 19:29:37 1998

weirdness

i called my grandparents

and my grandfather (mom’s dad) is good friends with my dad’s brother
so my grandfather asks me if there’s a problem between me and my uncle
and there has been for a long time
a really long time
and i’ve never understood it
when i was a kid, i was really precocious
so adults either loved me or hated me
i had lots of problems with teachers, etc… and i had teachers who loved me to death
anyway

i never had any problems with family except my uncle
and so it’s gone on for a long time
and it still goes on, because he hasn’t made any effort to get to know me as an adult
i never understood how he could hold such an ancient grudge against a child
i suspect that he thinks that i feel somehow “superior” to him
he always seems to be making efforts to take me down a notch
i don’t know
it blows my mind
i hate when people have preconceived notions that they will not let go of

i hate that he sees me in this strange way
i hate that he’s saying things to my grandparents about it
he’s fucked up, but it hurts my feelings anyway
the end

Session Close: Sat Aug 08 19:36:21 1998